Something Somewhere

I knew you’d be my
first something.
I never thought that
something would be
heartbreak.
I never thought my last
memory of us
would be watching you
walk away
your fingers still
hooked around my heartstrings
pulling them with you
until they snapped.

You never even
said goodbye
just turned away
and left your silence
ringing in my ears
until I could hear
nothing else.

Now I’m left wandering
trying to find
something
somewhere
that makes me feel okay.

So this is what it’s like to be lost.

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It Can’t If It’s Still In Love With You

I used to
tell you everything
now you’re gone
I still do
I tell the ghost of you
who wanders through my memories

You speak so
softly in my ear
I cannot hear the
words you say
though I wish your voice would cease to stay
your whispers echo through my head

It’s lonely
here inside my mind
with none but us
this ghost of you and I
I think I’ll try
to say one last goodbye to you

Go now please
it’s time you left
I ask that you would
let me go
because my heart needs to grow
and it can’t if it’s still in love with you

There Is In You

There is hope in your eyes
like the world just might
be that better place someday.

There is love in your voice
like people on the whole
aren’t as bad as they pretend to be.

There is strength in your touch
like you would hold the world gently
and keep it safe from harm.

There is trust in your heart
like you’ll wear it on your sleeve
in defiance of so many who would mock you for it.

There is hope
and love
and strength
and trust in who you are
and who you will be
and I’m thankful I get to share in it.

Full Attention

You mutter to yourself
while you work
much in the same way I do
pencil tilted at an angle
face close to the page
as you write
as if being
physically closer
to the question
will bring you
mentally closer
to the answer.

Your concentration
shows on your face
occasionally your brow furrows
in confusion or frustration
pencil pausing
relaxing again when you
move your hand to write.

I could be content
to just sit and
watch you work
for hours
if I didn’t know
that if I leaned towards you
you’d lift your face up
to kiss me
or if I reached for it
you’d give your hand to mine
and smile.

But I know your
hands and lips will be there
to hold and kiss later
when your work is done
and you can give me your
full attention
so for now I’ll be patient
sit and watch you work
and let you wonder
at why I’m smiling so much .